Wow. I am so fucking hurt and it would be really bad PR to express my disappointment. Instead I have to publicly focus on the positive...which truthfully is much better for my outlook and mental health...but inside I am seething.
I feel like all my hard work for the past year + working on promoting exposure for all the various groups was a huge fucking waste of my time and a huge benefit for them alone. OVER THAT SHIT RIGHT FUCKING NOW I TELL YA~
I am no longer going to extend myself to people or groups who do not understand an exchange of mutual support and respect. For too long I have MADE myself be NICE to people who continue to shit on me. I am SICK of it. What I am doing with my events are going to be a great addition to the calendar and if they want to be involved they will remain welcome...
BUT I WILL NOT PIMP ANOTHER EVENT FOR SOMEONE WHO TREATS ME LIKE CRAP. They've all benefited and their groups have grown with my help. Maybe they think it was all their little efforts? HA! I promote to three times the resources of most of them. The smart ones have learned from me and are beginning to see the benefits of reaching beyond their normal walls. Hope they were watching closely, because now it is all up to them to make their things grow.
I feel harsh thinking this. I won't speak ill of any group. I will still send folks to each of them. I am considering finding a way to print out a calendar/listing booklet to give to my guests at the Mixers. I just have to find a way to cover the costs of prints.
My life is dedicated to happiness. They didn't make me happy. No revenge needed, but no going out of my way to help those who don't notice how much it has~
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