I never told her

She came back around right before the elections. I wanted her to be sure I was the person she wanted to bring into her life once her hubby finally moved out. She swore things would be different this time. She was stunned by how hard and jaded I was when addressing my issues regarding trust that were directly related to the last time we were friends. She was the one who swore she'd never ever leave and yet she did the first time with the exit excuse of "You are too crazy right now"...this from the woman I helped while SHE was in the mental hospital and helped HER detox afterwards when NO ONE in her family cared...okay...sort of moved past that because in reality I was butt-astically insane...but still was never cool with that lame ass excuse from the person who claimed to truly love me...

ah the lies of those who claim to love me...why do they bother? But my mind is wandering...focus...

I should have known the night of the lies on my bed about the phone. That moment was the closest feeling to the one I recall when I remember Will telling me about fucking Suzanne beside me as I slept...Here I was backing you again and you turn to that dickhead of an ex? FOR FUCKING REAL?

Her complete lack of recollection that everything she ever asked of or wanted from a man, I GAVE to her and was willing to consider bringing to her life again...the quote of the night, "It's different when YOU took me there and we did those things" AS IF ALL THOSE NIGHTS OUT ON MY DOLLAR DID NOT FUCKING COUNT?!?

WHAT ABOUT THE HOURS OF THERA-FUCKING-PY THAT I GAVE YOU? The blogs that made you realize you are okay? How about how they made that penis you are so attached to fall in love with you? Oh, my assigning them was for naught? good to know, bitch!

I can't believe all the help we gave you. This time I dragged others into helping you too and yet I am a fucking asshole?!?! Each time I fixed you in the past and the recent times where you were floundering and I found ways to help...fucking big fucking bucks ways too...all offered to you because you were dear to me..you dumb fucking CUNT. I took you groceries from my barren kitchen thinking you were going without only to see a cabinet full of shit that you didn't want to cook?!?! SELFISH MUCH?

So you found the dick of your dreams...you saw something in him that has never been apparent to me...while I can appreciate him from a distance, up close and with true examination he is a fucking emo pouty BITCH. For fucking real...And YEAH THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID...so fucking lame...self grandiousing moron...but you are so stupid you wanted it soooooo much NOT NOTICING HE IS SO MUCH LIKE YOUR EXHUBBY THAT IT MAKES ME WANT TO VOMIT. Whatever dumb cunt.

I told the group I was walking out silently. When asked publicly what fell apart this Generation, I just say we are different places in life. And we are...

I AM IN THE PLACE WHERE I RETURN THE FAVOR OFTEN IN ADVANCE. You forgot how to do that. YOU forgot how to be a real friend. YOU forgot forever.

YOU CAN NOW GO FUCK YOURSELF.